अनित्य

How long will you yearn for something that is not anymore? For someone who is not anymore?
How long will you compare what you feel now with what you felt then, even when you know there's really no other truth than that अनित्य you've got tattooed on your arm?
When will you finally learn how to let go and move on?
You cannot go back to being carefree, childless and thirty-three. You cannot go back to that, to there, to her. Not even by getting on the first plane and flying to India.
Let go!
Keep on going...
You can take those steps you're eager to take, you can do the things you've imagined. You just need to give yourself the means to do so. Just accept that it's going to be different, that you were never meant to stay stuck in a moment, poised in an instant. That even if you could, you wouldn't anyway. Not now that she is in your life. It doesn't depend on you, you cannot decide that.
Let go!
Find you way, look for it, start by starting...
Feel alive again, don't just go through the motions. You only have this one chance, don't blow it. This is it, this is your life.
Just let go and live it!